Friday, May 20, 2005

So I wouldn't have diddled around earlier this week if I would have known...

...that I'd be sick the end of this week. Natha had viral pink eye (the kind caused by an adenovirus AKA cold virus) and gave it to me, but I've just got more of a generalized viral infection than he did - he had it mostly in his eyes...

So I'm quite tired - I run out of energy quickly, then I need to lie down for a while... my head kind of feels funny and has a dull ache to it... and I woke up wednesday night in the middle of the night with vertigo... for those of you who don't know, I have Meniere's disease, although I control the vertigo attacks with diet (mainly minimal caffeine) & by limiting stress - so I just normally have a bit of ringing in my ears and a bad sense of balance when I'm having a 'bad day'. Since I've known what I had (May of 2000) I've been able to head off any serious symptoms... I've had it since I was about 14 or 15, though. It wasn't until I had Natha that it dawned on me to go to the doctor - I would have severe vertigo about once every 9 months or so, the kind where I can't move my head for 8 hours, and the attacks were almost always at night, so I'd just sleep them off, then wake up with a vertigo 'hangover' the next day... Then when I had Natha, I couldn't just sleep it off whenever it happened, so I went to the doctor before my health insurance through my mom ran out. When I got there, the specialist had his two residents (I think they were residents) do different physical tests to see if they made me dizzy. That was a *lot* of fun. He then sat me down with a video about Meniere's disease and told me that's what I had, very matter-of-factly. He gave me a prescription for 1/4 doses of Xanax (it was enough to calm just the inner ear) and some heartburn prevention medicine that they had discovered that one of the side effects was that it kept the inner ear in balance. If I only would have known then what I know now, I would have been enjoying me those goofballs while they lasted - he prescribed me enough to last 6 months, but I never took a single one of either of them. Oh well.

I've got to go run a bath for the Icky Boy, then remind him about 20 times to get himself dressed, brush his teeth, and get ready for bed. At least he's doing it all himself now. He also gets himself dressed in the morning, although it takes a while... for those of you with only children, you'd understand - you forget that they can do these things themselves and you keep going on doing them for them since it takes longer to occur to you that they really don't need as much help as you're giving them. Then you realize one day that they can do it themselves and you have to break yourself of your habit of helping them with everything, since they don't always mention that they want to do it 'all by myself!'

My rings were finally done & sized today, so I'm wearing them now - there are three of them - two plain gold 3mm bands with a channel-set 1/4 carat combined diamond row in the middle (12 diamonds in the row). I wear all three of them at the same time, and they look very pretty - almost like one ring since they fit together so closely. Since my fingers are so long, I can have more 'ring' on my finger and it look ok... one small band just gets dwarfed by my long-ish digits. Ed keeps saying I don't look happy enough to have them... but dear, I am - I'm just sick at the moment... I also am overwhelmed with emotion when I look at them - which is every time I notice them - which is every 5 minutes - and I'm not sure how to put my happiness into words...I also kind of want to go out to bars downtown just to get guy attention then politely mention that I'm married and show them my ring. To let them know, once, and for all, that they missed their chance. I like to be coveted and not available, instead of looking for attention and kind of desperate. Yes, I know I'm weird...

I might be writing more later, who knows. Depends on how I feel...

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